DUDAS

So... it's been 2.5 months since I asked him to move out... why did I do that? well... summarizing...
Ship life, everything was great, we married, it all seemed perfect, moving to Mexico... first big mistake (he arrived depressed 1st year was tough) he then found the motivation, found a job and... second and biggest mistake... he cheated, he cheated big time, like he actually had a relationship with someone else... not just "I got drunk and had sex with a stranger" cheating style... but "I've chosen names for our future babies" kind of cheating. then... I was depressed or better said, I've been depressed, still am. He got tired of "trying" which I didn't even notice and suddenly, I was living with a stranger that avoided me and tried his very best to stay away from me... so I eventually got tired of that and asked him to leave the house... he promised he'd try his very best to get me back... but he hasn't done much. He has helped me out a couple of times when it comes to stuff from the car, but... is like having a mechanic that I can trust to take my car for days and bring it fixed...that's about it... and that's where we are at.
What is going to happen? I honestly have no idea... I wish for things to go back to how they were on ships, but I know that will not happen... I wish for him to put some effort and prove he loves me... but deep down, I'm pretty sure he doesn't love me anymore, and that is what hurts the most... knowing that the man that chose me to be with him for the rest of his life changed his mind and doesn't even want me around anymore... that all the love he had for me ran out and I don't deserve to be loved, or that it is not worth it to love me...
Yup... I'm depressed